Vulnerability Questions - a short interview

 How do you view sadness and why? How do you express it? 

I don't enjoy sadness, it's an emotion that I am far too familiar with. Sadness is an emotion I've never had difficulty expressing, usually because by the time I'm crying, I am already overflowing with sadness. 

How do you view anger and why? How do you express it? 

I grew up in a house full of anger. It is the easiest emotion I express because it's the first one I learned. It's the first instinct reaction to a lot of things in my life. I am usually yelling.  

How do you express joy and why?

Most of the time feelings of joy feel very forced. It's usually an over-the-top reaction from my brain forcibly making serotonin.

When you made a mistake as a child, were you rejected, punished or not forgiven? How do you think this impacts your ability to forgive now? 

All of the above, we were greatly punished for making mistakes. Punishment usually consisted of something unrelated to the mistake, then we were sent to our rooms and the mistake was never forgotten.

What is love outside of any pain attached to it? 

Friendship, loyalty, support

What frightens you the most? 

Being remembered as something i wasn't. I'm afraid my efforts to change, heal and be better won't be remembered by the people I love. 

How do you communicate your emotions? 

I trip over my words trying to get my feelings out before I can be interrupted.

How would you like to communicate your emotions? 

Calmly and with compassion

What emotion do you feel most comfortable with? 

What emotion do you feel least comfortable with?

Define vulnerability and how it plays a part in your life? 

Being able to communicate the deepest feelings and being understood is so important to me. Laughing in the face of tears and having people to call on for help. 

In what ways can you effectively move through your emotions? 

I enjoy journaling and taking long walks alone to clear my head

How often do you ask for help? 

Rarely

How does saying "no" make you feel? 

Guilty and not guilty at the same time

What are you letting go of? 

The need to control every aspect of my life. The weight of how other people's opinions affect me.

What do you need to forgive yourself for?

Making mistakes when I didn't know any better, Not knowing how to advocate for myself. 

I show my compassion by?

Being a shoulder to cry on, helping while still holding my boundaries.

I show myself love by? 

Making sure my needs are met, physically, emotionally and spiritually. Holding my boundaries firm and keeping those who hurt me held accountable.

I show myself kindness by? 

Relaxing about my physical image. Buying myself clothes that fit. 

How do you implement boundaries?