I promise your dreams are worth having

Recently I’ve started reading a book by Rachel Hollis called Girl wash your face, and when I tell you it’s absolutely life changing I mean it. 

Rachel is a girls girl for sure, hell she’s made her entire platform and social media presence on being a huge supporter of other women. I seriously cannot thank her enough for the work she’s done. 

But it’s seriously had me thinking about my own life and the dreams I put on hold because I didn’t think I deserved them. It’s made me deeply question the world I’ve built for myself because honestly it hasn’t been a very big world at all. 

I am twenty five years old, I am married to a man who loves and adores me, I am the mother of two beautiful daughters, we own a huge old church we’ve converted into a family home and I have this sinking feeling that it’s never enough. I’ve felt like I should have accomplished more by now. 

How silly right? 

I have more than a lot of people my age, yet I compare myself over and over to those women who figured out how to balance all of this sooner. 

Right now I work as a caretaker for my grandpa, two days a week and the rest of the week I’m just mom. 

I had some luck a few years ago with selling art and other weird things but the burnout got the best of me and I let it all go. It takes a lot for me to admit where I’ve failed in life and really the only person I’ve ever failed is myself for giving up too soon. 

It’s a strange reality to admit. 

 But here I am admitting it to you because maybe seeing someone else be brave enough to admit where   they’ve failed will encourage you to be truthful with yourself. And if you’re a woman or a mom whose got it all figured out, I’m really happy for you. No, seriously, I’m happy for you. 

Recently I’ve started to journal again. Everyday I set aside time to read one chapter of whatever book I’m working on, and afterwards journal for about 15 minutes. It forces me to slow down in my ever fast paced life. It’s that nice time for just myself that feels really productive to my life. 

Back to the journaling though. Yesterday I wrote down some of my dreams and goals in life and the steps needed to make them a reality and ya know what? They don’t seem to scary at all. 

I started to get so excited about my future when I saw the short list of things needed to accomplish my dreams. 

If you haven’t sat down and really thought about things you hope to accomplish, I encourage you to do so. Even if it’s something simple like living a quiet life, learning how to homestead and raising your children in a van. Journal it. 

If you want to one day own your own cosmetics line, run a successful blog and live in a mansion. 

Journal it. 

Make a plan and go for your dreams because you’re worth having them. You deserve a life you enjoy living. 

Throw away the lie you’ve told yourself of not being good enough to achieve. 

Love for now Sophie